🥂 To The Hard Lessons

This weekend ended in unfortunate events when I had to learn the hard way a lesson that the universe has been wanting me to know for the last year. I am not comfortable sharing what happened, at least not yet.

But damn. There are sometimes lessons that take so long for us to learn and redirect ourselves to do and be better truly. I woke up so angry at myself. But I understand how damaging those feelings can be towards one’s self. So I quickly analyzed how I was feeling, felt it, and chose to learn the lesson from my mistake. I make mistakes. I am only human. I chose to give myself grace and promise myself that it will never happen again.

I share this story to I guess say when times come that you make a mistake and you become so mad at yourself, learn to forgive yourself. Promise yourself to do better for you. If you hold on to the feeling of disappointment in yourself, it will control you and foster you. Feel it and then move on.

Forgiveness for someone who has wronged you is one of the hardest things to do. So forgiveness of yourself is twice as hard. Learn to do it anyways. Just like forgiving someone is better for you, forgiving yourself is better for you.

p.s. are you listening to the pod?

Oh oh. I almost forgot….. trust the processsss✨

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But the hard truth is you shouldn’t be easy on yourself. Right wrongs. I have lost people in my life because I didn’t know how to control myself. Some of these relationships were worth saving, some not. My not learning my lesson has done more damage to my life than good. Therefore, it’s a lesson that I have to be tough on myself in learning.

What you have no control over, masters you. I no longer choose to be controlled.